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Hi all, again ♥ I'm flexing these voice muscles. In text. You know. As you do when you're out of practice and a vortex of opinions, memories, and thoughts swirl in your brain. To switch to a gross metaphor I'm wielding floss to clean out the mental tartar. May the specks fall where they fall. Watch out!

Also: I'm struggling to reply to comments. Sorry ♥ I'll keep trying!

- I'm coming up on 3 years as a shelver at the library. Pros: I love the work. Everyday is an alphanumerical puzzle I solve using my body. I barely have to talk (though still more than I prefer). My branch has nice people. Cons: it's part-time, my Union is in cahoots with The Machine, and I'm tearing my body apart. You will pry this job from me only when I'm incapacitated.

Herein lies morbid content, including world events, suicide, and death. )

- Is it weird to follow up that with more positive notes? Ah what the heck it's my style. I'm flying out to Japan next week on vacation. I'm going to Chugoku to visit prefectures I've never seen before. I want to learn and vibe and eat. The world's so interesting.

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Feb. 3rd, 2026 05:33 pm
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I am not in Somalia, I am not in Gaza, I am not in Minneapolis, so mustn't complain. But there are still fretful niggles.

There's been a musty smell in my house for several days now. Something has died somewhere. Probably a mouse, because trust me, rats smell worse. Went down to the basement to do a wash and found no corpuses so must be in a vent somewhere. If I didn't have a super nose I probably wouldn't even notice it but I do and it bothers me. It will disappear eventually and meanwhile I've broken out my stash of incense. 

My garbage hasn't been put out this year and is beginning to pile up. I never do have much garbage and once a month usually does me, but I think we're at seven weeks now. But my garbage bin is under two feet of snow. No matter. I have those pricey tags you can put on extra bags so the garbage guys will take them. They're on the kitchen table. Only they aren't. They're not to be found anywhere in the kitchen. No doubt I put them in the proverbial Safe Place and will never find them again until I buy new ones, available only at Shoppers where I will not be going any time soon. So fine. Put on boots, take shovel, and remove snow so I can heave my bin from its snowy bed. Of course there's no place to put it afterwards so it's lying on its side, half on the path. Must put garbage out tomorrow afternoon because there's not enough space for the walker on the path.

Since my lenses have been on backorder for six weeks now, with occasional updates saying Still on backorder should come in soon!, yesterday morning I ordered another box of 30 from the pricey but reliable company. And I mean pricey: for what a month's supply cost me I could have got a new bar fridge. So of course yesterday afternoon, comes the email from company 1 saying Your order has shipped. Well, great. I am well-supplied with lenses now. Only, this morning company 2 tells me their lenses are on backorder too. I wish there was a way to cancel that order only I'm not seeing it. But at least I'm supplied until September.

Going downstairs in the morning means going back to weighing myself every morning. To console me for everything else, I dropped another half pound yesterday,  to a weight not seen since 2022. Yay water and bike machines!

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Feb. 2nd, 2026 03:55 pm
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[personal profile] flemmings
The good news is that I got up the street with only a few patches of slush impeding the walker's wheels. Alleyways mostly, which are a pain because snow+slope makes for antsy footing. So I should be able to get to physio on Wednesday. I've been doing remarkably well given it's been nearly three weeks but will be glad of some work on the knees.

The bad news is that I knocked my water pic of the sink this morning and broke something off it. Thus the need to get to Loblaws to buy a new one.

The worst is that the bar fridge stopped working last night. The connection will no longer connect. So it's stairs again for me in the morning.

However, last Thursday as I was pushing my way through the almost impassable slush a bearded guy coming the other way stopped to commiserate. You're very brave, he said. Pure hubris, I said, and anyway I need potatoes. I ran across him again today up the street. Appears he was impressed by my using hubris, a word which he doesn't expect people in general to know. Ah, said I, comes of being a Classics major. Still impressive, he says. Which was nice.

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Feb. 1st, 2026 04:34 pm
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[personal profile] flemmings
Rabbit, rabbit.

Slightly warmer today, with sun, and I had thoughts about going out and shovelling more snow off the bins, but instead sat on the couch with hot beanbag wraps and finished Flora's Fury. I'm a little sad that she didn't finish the series but on balance, maybe not. Flora is really hard to take for long. Impetuous characters who never stop to think are so not my bag.

I distinctly remember buying lean hamburger once and registering it as a mistake because it was too dry to make good fried rice with. Something must have changed in the rubrics because I used lean to make beef stroganoff on Friday and it was so fat I had to soak it up with paper towels. Couldn't drain it because I added it to the vegetables I'd sauteed first-- mushrooms, onions, broccoli and cabbage. If I eat meat, it's going to be well padded with veg. Maybe if I'd served it with rice or noodles but I'm still trying to keep the starches low.

To which end it seems I lost 5.7 pounds in January (that's 2.5 kilos more or less), so my modifications are working. Yes, no alcohol works wonders. No, I still hate it.

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Jan. 30th, 2026 08:03 pm
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I defrosted the bedroom bar fridge yesterday. Satisfying as it is to pull great sheets of ice out with the aid of a screwdriver, this will occasionally sever important connections. Was wondering why the fridge was so silent last night. Anyway, I fiddled with this and that and it started purring again this morning, so I'm hoping all is well and cold. I'll be more careful in future, and also not wait six months to defrost. Though if worst happens, it won't kill me to go back to limping downstairs to get my breakfast and limping back up to eat it. Did it when I was far more crippled than I am now ie four+ years ago.

My grocery order came promptly and a little before time, also with the same shopper as I had in December. Possibly luck of the draw, possibly he remembers that hefty tip I gave him. Poor lad gets the worst weather with me-- sleeting rain then, bitter bitter cold today.

It will warm up briefly next week but I'll probably wait till Monday to see if the sidewalks north of me have become passable. Physio on Wednesday if I can make it. I wonder if Diamond cabs would consent to ferry me two and a half blocks?

WIPs poll

Jan. 29th, 2026 09:03 pm
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[personal profile] melannen
I got tagged into this on Tumblr but might as well give you lot a chance too.

Here's a list of all the WIPS I've touched in the last three years, listed by working title. The deal is that I write 100 words for every vote (no deadline.)

No, you don't get to ask for any more info, though I have talked about some of them before. The oldest one is about twenty-five; the newest was started for yuletide this year. There are 25 different fandoms involved, which is definitely part of the problem, yes.

Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 54


Which WIP?

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A novel example of three-factor, one locus sex determination in a Terrestrial chordate
1 (1.9%)

a shadow on snow
0 (0.0%)

All Men Raising
0 (0.0%)

Arha the Ninth
3 (5.6%)

Chappa'ai
3 (5.6%)

Cheris the First
3 (5.6%)

Children of Barrayar
7 (13.0%)

Clark Knows Better
1 (1.9%)

The #@%$^$ Coffeeshop Fic Fine
3 (5.6%)

Dyson Swarm
1 (1.9%)

The First Sedoretu of Ankh-Morpork
15 (27.8%)

The Hanahaki Protocols
1 (1.9%)

Hello My Name Is
1 (1.9%)

Hikarigakure
0 (0.0%)

I <3 Boobies ch 2
1 (1.9%)

If A Body Meet A Body
1 (1.9%)

I Was The Yiling Laozu's Concubine And All I Got Was This Gauzy Robe
6 (11.1%)

Kobayashi Gusu
0 (0.0%)

Necro-Gothic
1 (1.9%)

One Is One And All Alone
1 (1.9%)

Paris Lui-Meme Imite
1 (1.9%)

Peace love & Quebecois
1 (1.9%)

The Second Master of Yiling
1 (1.9%)

Slow Like Honey
1 (1.9%)

Something Rotten
1 (1.9%)

Tiger Burning Bright
0 (0.0%)

Untitled Shous Game
0 (0.0%)

The White Dynasty Does An Activism
0 (0.0%)

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Jan. 29th, 2026 05:03 pm
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In a fit of nearly terminal hubris, I went out to Fiesta today. Today is recycle pickup, which famously does not get picked up, plus snow berms from cars (on my side of the street: opposite side is from snow plows) plus people who just never got around to shovelling their sidewalks. So it was A Trip. I thought that the -12 temps might have kept the snow frozen enough to make pushing easier but TO snow is unimpressed by -12 and insisted on being slidy churned up. Came home soaked in sweat and stiff as if I'd been cross-country skiing, with arms aching from pushing the walker through the churned up snow and  having to lift it bodily over the ridges. This will learn me, of course. 

But I'd ordered a grocery delivery for tomorrow and wanted to see what I could get myself of those things that Loblaws does badly, like fingerling potatoes, and in case of substitutions, because Loblaws tends to run out of stuff on a regular basis. It had to be Loblaws because I need ibuprofen, and because a Sobey's truck won't fit on my street. Especially if, as I suspect, the recycle doesn't get picked up until tomorrow. Yes, they managed it after last February's dump, but we had more snow Sunday than last February.

My sadness is that I want flageolet beans, that food from my childhood. There are very few legumes I can eat safely- lima beans in small quantities,  edamame at will, and flageolets. But nobody has them, no one at all, except amazon. And the only thing I will buy from amazon is books unavailable anywhere else. 

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Jan. 28th, 2026 03:59 pm
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Didn't want to get up this morning. Bed so warm, world so cold. Checked my phone in bed and saw 47 has taken to wearing a glove on his left hand to hide the bruising,  like Cosmo Gilt. Yeah, could be because of aspirin use-- I used to get amazing bruises back in my aspirin and codeine days-- but someone cheerfully remarked that the Queen had a similar bruise on her hand when greeting Lettuce Liz, and two days later she was dead. Of course if he's taking aspirin he's less likely to have a stroke, which is unfortunate, but maybe the Big Macs will do for his heart.

Is still freezing out because wind chill. Went out and scraped packed snow off front walkway and a bit of the sidewalk, but there's ice underneath. It comes up if you hack at the right angle but that irritates my touchy neck vertebrae so I couldn't finish. Removed a bit of the snow mountain in front of the bins and the gas meter. Bins aren't going out any time soon and new company is making noises about not taking bagged recycling like the city used to, but the gas reader is coming next week. Mind, the gas co. should just do another estimate this month and cut their losses.

Reading is still Dr. Siri but I wanted a break and some easily understood classical English mystery,  so I got a .99 special (and why doesn't this keyboard have a cents sign? I can have £ and € and ¥, but cents, no.) It was very silly and I deleted it from my account so I don't even know what it was called. Then had recourse to a Dr. Priestley, but Rhode has a verbal tick that increasingly grates. Whenever a witness is asked about an event, the answer begins with either 'I'll tell you how it was' or 'It was like this.'  Ah well. Back to Dr. Siri.

Dead tree is Flora's Fury to get it off the shelf. I should read at least Flora's Dare to refresh the memory, but Libby doesn't have it and it's non-circulating at the library. Still, the world building is a lot of fun and I'm enjoying it.

That was the blizzard that was

Jan. 26th, 2026 11:59 am
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Yeah, so that was 56 cm/ 22"  downtown, setting a record for most snow in one day. The dump of '99 gave us three times that much but over a couple of days. My steps were obliterated last night when I went to bed and I got up this morning steeled to deal with them. No idea where I'd *put* the snow, of course, since heaving shovelfuls of even light powder is more than my elbows and back are up to. But after I'd breakfasted and stretched,  I came down to find my blessèd neighbours had snowblown my walkways and steps. The blown snow was the height of my armpits. Snowploughs had created embankments on the street, and maybe bobcats, maybe really public-minded citizens had cleared the sidewalks-- or rather, reduced the snow cover to an inch or two-- as far as I could see. But corners will be impassable so no, not going out any time soon. DW reminds me that I was inside for ten days after the dump last year but SND texted me last night to say she'd pick me up anything I needed. I have wonderful neighbours, one of the many reasons I don't want to leave this neighbourhood. 

But snow dumps are the reason I also want to lose weight and get my legs stronger so I can be mobile again. Thus I will not be asking SND to pick me up vodka once the city starts moving again.

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Jan. 25th, 2026 04:03 pm
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No, sorry, that's no 7-10 cm out there. It's damn near the 30 cm/ 1 foot they said would happen with lake effect, if not in fact more. Can't tell with the wind blowing: my porch alone had 15 cm piled up on it. My good neighbour(s) (plural because both J and C have snowblowers-- saw them hobnobbing as they cleared their respective frontages) snowblew the front walkway and sidewalk some time this morning. I went out at noon and did the steps and the accumulation on the walkway. Four hours later I went out and removed a foot off the steps and six inches from the walkway. Came in and as I was taking off my boots good neighbour C came and cleaned my steps again. Yes it is snowing that hard. My icon is exactly what's happening. Am bitterly regretting that dry January I decided on.

My weather memory is off, which disturbs me. I keep thinking this amount of snow is unusual, but it's not. We had a lot last year, not just the big dump in February, a major snowstorm in 2022, and enough in 2023. It was only 2024 that was dry enough for shoes. And for that matter, we had a January thaw in the second week. It was 15 on my birthday.

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Jan. 24th, 2026 08:35 pm
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This post has been brewing for a while, and I guess I'm finally going to just write it down, even though it doesn't feel "complete" or fully processed or anything of the sort. But it probably never will be. So, this is as coherent as it's going to get.

long text under the cut )

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Jan. 24th, 2026 02:01 pm
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A balmy 'feels like -9 / 16F' out there so, having survived the high winds and -20 of yesterday, thought to try my luck getting up to Loblaws, because of course tomorrow is Moar Snow. Again, not forecast to be the huge dump of elsewhere. 7-10 cm ie 2-4 inches, like Wednesday. But not easy to be out in and possibly making home delivery a problem, what with snow berms on either side of my street.

Walking wasn't too bad. Ice ridges in the street where snow plows dumped their loads but the corners themselves flattened enough to be passable. A few houses on my block had cut narrow passages for the able-bodied, a few hadn't shovelled at all, but the next block was clear all the way. Except it was clear because someone-- and it must have been the city's contracted snow cleaners because no one else has that kind of largesse-- had dumped piles of salt every few metres and then spread a cm over the entire sidewalk. I do not understand how any of this works, and I'm not even sure the city is still contracting their cleaning out.

Being on a Dr. Siri roll and having exhausted the paperback versions, got the next one in ebook from the library. (Parenthetically, this is a typical winter in that getting dead tree from the library is suspended until at least March.) But either the format or the actual three-strand plot of I Shot the Buddha had me beat. Half way through I had to go back and start again, and when finished, had to go back and reread several passages a third time.  Almost as bad/ good as Diana Wynn Jones or early Ima Ichiko for twistiness. I think there are only three more of these so on I go.

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Jan. 22nd, 2026 07:18 pm
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[personal profile] flemmings
I must assume it's the current political climate that has me all wibbly about the impending meteorological one. Polar vortices are nothing new in this town: we had one last year. But of course this year comes on top of snow dumps and is set to last till the end of January, not just a day or two and done.

It starts tonight so I went out in today's sunshine and relative warmth to stock up at Fiesta,  even though it meant threadinng my way between ice berms and garbage bins. A bobcat had come up the street and done its best with those houses that couldn't be arsed to shovel last week's accumulation, but of course it had turned to unmoving ice by today. So three houses in a row had ice ridges in front. One or two other places put down salt that had begun to break up the ice, but that will all freeze again tonight. I do so wish I was still able-bodied enough to take my ice chopper to it, because I could have cleared it all in fifteen minutes. At least my side of the Greek gardener's corner lot was clear, though the Follis stretch looked untouched. But insult to injury, the actual corner had a great puddle that I was forced to wade through in my ancient leaky boots.

However am now reasonably set for the next week if I have to stay indoors. But I really need to get a massage for my twinging back since that's what's making moving difficult now. I have money for luxuries because my physio is on vacation next week, I can't get out to restaurants, I'm not buying alcohol, and my dental cleaning cost me $13-- not because of insurance but because I paid for something last year that insurance reimbursed half of,  so I had a wodge of cash on account.

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