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[petronia]

As a counter to that last burst of sentimentality, I'll ramble some more about HnG fic.


Idly tried to further the Suyon-voice, today, wondering if it'd also be 2nd person. It wasn't. Yappari Touya-kun wa tokubetsu. (Tokubetsutte yori, nanka, hen...) 3rd person limited, Korean boy, and that not so much anything else as because Yonha is the type of character more fun to write from the outside in. I can't start it for another two or three weeks, anyway, given that I have no idea if what I want to happen, will happen. So far out on the edge of this series my arms are pinwheeling. It's just as well. Gives me time to finish up Self-Addressed, etc.

Also figured out how Things will manage to Happen, in the noodle-timeline (and no doubt startled a few obaasan on the street with my sudden spate of public cackling). In fact I'll call it the "Akira gets into trouble by not eating" timeline, as that seems to be the general leitmotif. It goes unmentioned in the ramenfic, which deals with one particular instantiation thereof, but uchi no Akira has a tendency not to eat. When he's inspired or excited or absorbed, he forgets - not to eat, but to be hungry at all - and he likes it that way. ...I wouldn't consciously have made Akira borderline-anorexic, I protest, but I know this like I know about the go stone; it's gremlin lore. Ficcing is a wondrous odd activity, at that. >_>

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anorexia....psychological manifestation of ISSUES...

[(Anonymous)]

Jesus Christ, swapped as a baby with a pod-person, major obsession issues, now the boy is borderline anorexic, I feel for him, I really do. It's just that well, I like screwed up individuals who just have no clue ^__^

The scary thing is I saw that one coming, maybe not consciously but based on your ramenfic and Akira's -conviction- that he doesn't need to eat... well, he's definitely on his way (damn you psychology!) to developing anorexia nervosa. I can at least be happy in the knowledge that he -isn't- an anorexic yet. I mean, that would just be eww; way too much physical grosse things (I don't want Akira to loose hair, or have really bad skin, he's meant to be cute ^__^).

Although, Akira being an anorexic does say quite a bit about him psychologically. Control freak, much (I'm ignoring the whole phsysique aspect of it, I just don't think the boy really give a damn about the way he looks. Oh, but control issues I can see). Me thinks from now on Akira's personality is going to be a bit of mesh of canon and fanon for me (specifically your Akira, for some reason he just clicks with me). Your pod-person, Gibson-loving, in denial Akira has taken residence in my psyche and is refusing to budge... what a dear-boy (the little stubborn prat).

luv lilack

P.S. I have this sneaky suspiscion I know more about your Akira than I do about canon Akira. I feel like your Akira can't surprise me, despite this, I don't consciously -know- him... it this making any sense? I know he's an alien, I know he has issues, I know he's -definitely- in dangerous ground when it comes to getting an eating disorder, but I just can't figure out how he got them, and I WANT to know MORE about him and his cracked brain... I also think control is everything to him. He's so fascinating.

Re: anorexia....psychological manifestation of ISSUES...

[petronia.livejournal.com]

In the cold light of morning 'borderline anorexic' is probably too alarmist. Even I've done that from time to time - not budging from this terminal for food drink or call of nature until I've tracked down the stack overflow in this program etc. - and my life basically revolves around food. ^^; Akira's just a bit more systematic about it. There's a high-strung energy to him, as a character - ascetic/aesthete - and he does strike me as the kind of person who gets nauseated by food when he's in a certain mental "zone". It's temperamental, but like most people of that temperament he's probably a little proud of it, secretly or subconsciously.

He hasn't gotten into real trouble with this, mind you, and is unlikely to as long as he's in a living situation where he has to take meals with other people as part of a social setting. (Everyone around him prods him to eat, if you pay attention. Hikaru and Waya need no prodding.) Anyhow I'm not going to turn this into a huge issue in-fic, because I don't particularly want to write angsty melodrama; treat it as background information, if you will. ^_^

Re: anorexia....psychological manifestation of ISSUES...

[petronia.livejournal.com]

And it's not that angsty melodrama is impossible. If uchi no Akira got into the situation depicted by Squid and Alex in their RR, he'd probably stop eating altogether, and there'd be no one at his apartment to make him. ^^; A few days in he'd try to stand up from the goban too quickly and topple over with a surprised look on his face. ^^;;;

Re: anorexia....psychological manifestation of ISSUES...

[(Anonymous)]

Don't worry, I'm not expecting it to be an issue (well, major issue), it's just really fascinating ^^ I'd like more "zoning" Akira and his moods, and I'm positive he's sub-consciously proud of it (deep down).

In hindsight his annoyance at Hikaru making (prodding?) him to eat does have more of an extra kick ^^ And while the boy might be proud of it somewhere, he isn't stupid, he knows he needs fuel in order to function.

I'll try to be more coherent tomorrow, however, at present time I need sleep, like the boys need to play go.

lilack