writergripe
Mar. 11th, 2003 12:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
petroniaI have a bumper crop of reasons why (what should be) the last two pages of this fic are torturing me so, and the vast majority of them revolve around the fact that Motoni Modoru has a sick sense of humour. Of course, I'm writing this because her sick sense of humour had such an effect on me, so my goose is cooked through and through. You could stick a chopstick into the breast of my goose, at this point, and the juices will run clear. I can assure you.
In other words, canon issues I want to ignore but can't, and want to justify but don't know how. At least it's a novelty.
(There are fanwriting issues too, hovering somewhere in the background, but they pale compared to the canon ones. One is that Sumire's embarrassingly fundamental d00fusdom has hijacked the narrative twice already. Two is that I haven't written smut from the uke's POV since the YYH fic years ago - except for VoT, but Schuldich is something of an Attack Uke so it doesn't count - and barely remember how to do it. Not that that matters. If one thing has definitely changed in my writing style, it's the way I do smut. It's probably edging toward the slash end of things. J might hate it. Heck, I might hate it. That would be a good reason why I can't seem to finish smut scenes anymore.)
EDIT -- look, don't mind me. I don't normally writergripe in public anymore, but I'm bugged by this one because I like it. It may nor may not be the greatest thing I've ever written, but it definitely feels different. And it's short. And the smut in my head is really hot. And offhand I only know two people who've read the series, but they are two people I'd aim to please, and so forth.
Maybe I should go write that pretentious HikaGo thing. At this point it's starting to look like a restorative.
In other words, canon issues I want to ignore but can't, and want to justify but don't know how. At least it's a novelty.
(There are fanwriting issues too, hovering somewhere in the background, but they pale compared to the canon ones. One is that Sumire's embarrassingly fundamental d00fusdom has hijacked the narrative twice already. Two is that I haven't written smut from the uke's POV since the YYH fic years ago - except for VoT, but Schuldich is something of an Attack Uke so it doesn't count - and barely remember how to do it. Not that that matters. If one thing has definitely changed in my writing style, it's the way I do smut. It's probably edging toward the slash end of things. J might hate it. Heck, I might hate it. That would be a good reason why I can't seem to finish smut scenes anymore.)
EDIT -- look, don't mind me. I don't normally writergripe in public anymore, but I'm bugged by this one because I like it. It may nor may not be the greatest thing I've ever written, but it definitely feels different. And it's short. And the smut in my head is really hot. And offhand I only know two people who've read the series, but they are two people I'd aim to please, and so forth.
Maybe I should go write that pretentious HikaGo thing. At this point it's starting to look like a restorative.
